Autumn has stolen my heart this year and I am living each day with eyes wide open 🍂
I want to drink it all in, so the slanted, glittering golden light can nourish me all the way through till Imbolc in February.
As I recorded November’s Good Vibe Tribe offerings in the woodlands this morning, I felt as if the angels were with me.
Time stood still.
The birds were singing, the earth was damp, and occasionally the wind nudged the trees so they released globules of heavy rain down to the earth, like a dog shaking itself dry ✨
I want to talk to you about something that is very close to my heart 💖
Grief has been a constant in my adult life, and I’m learning to navigate it each and every day 💫
As some of you may or may not know, I have lost all the beautiful women who came before me on my maternal line. My Auntie Debbie passed away first, followed by my Nana, and then my gorgeous Mum just over two and a half years ago.
Gosh, doesn’t time move so fast?
Grief is something we learn to live with, and in my experience, it often creeps up on you in the least expected moments.
Just over the weekend, I woke up with a song rolling around in my head.
Nothing unusual there... but this song had somehow risen from the depths of my unconscious mind, and when I say I haven’t thought about it in nearly 25 years, that’s no exaggeration!
The song that hit me like a tidal wave of emotion was Janet Jackson’s Together Again.
Little Hannah ADORED this bop, waiting with anticipation for it to come on one of the music channels so I could copy Janet’s otherworldly dance moves 💃✨
But Little Hannah didn’t understand the significance of the lyrics... until last weekend.
There are times when I look above and beyond
There are times when I feel your love around me, baby
I'll never forget my baby...
Everywhere I go, every smile I see
I know you are there smilin' back at me
Dancin' in moonlight, I know you are free
'Cause I can see your star shinin' down on me…
Always been a true angel to me - now above
I can't wait for you to wrap your wings around me, baby
Wrap them around me, baby
And just like that, in a nostalgic rush, out of the blue, the uncontrollable feeling of grief washed over me 🌊
Since Saturday morning, I’ve probably listened to this song about 10 times.
In the car.
Having a little boogie as I brush my teeth.
Whilst making a cuppa tea.
It keeps taking me right back to being carefree - a child again!
I remember my Mum singing along with it too. The more I play it, the more my heart feels warm and fuzzy 💖
Once I got over that initial wave of sticky, stomach-turning grief for a time I can’t ever go back to, this song has become an anchor.
It is now something I can turn to for a moment of comfort.
If this story resonates with you, I’d love to share about the Bereavement Meet-Up I’ve set up at Drink in Hebden Bridge.
This is the pic I took while nervously awaiting the first gathering of the Bereavement Meet-Up last month ✨
Little did I know there was no need to be nervous at all 🥰. The group arrived, gathered and connected instantly. It felt like sitting around a table with a group of friends who had a deep understanding of one another 🧡
The evening was inspiring and uplifting. I walked away feeling a sense of calm and connection.
If this feels like a space you need, we are gathering again next week, Sunday 27th October, from 6:45 pm 🍷
Drop me a message if you’d like to know more, and I can point you to some posts that offer support, help and information.
Liz (the owner of Drink) and I would love to invite you to come and raise a glass to absent friends ✨
Once again, I'm wrapping you in healing hugs.
Until next time, know your are more than enough & take good care,
Hannah xxx
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